Writing has always been a very soothing and relaxing time in my life. You can tell by the tempo of my poems what type of mood I was in at the moment. BUT, one thing I would like to stress and there are many people that don't understand this about someone that writes. It is circumstances and people that motivate a writer. Writers draw on the motivation given to them for their poems by seeing, feeling and experiencing everyday occurences. Some are sad, some are filled to the brim with joy. Others are written when a writer uses empathy for someone. I can meet a person, enjoy their company and sit down and write a poem about that person. So, in all fairness, a poem materializes because of others and for that I am grateful.
And I Smile
I think of you in the morning,
Getting up, stretching, yawning,
and I smile.
I watch the healing and growing that’s taking place
Physically and emotionally,
and I smile.
I remember the very first time I saw you at bingo,
Long hair, blue eyes, and all that beauty,
and I smile.
I think of the way you are letting our friendship grow
Day by day, so wonderful and so free,
and I smile.
I think of the awkwardness of trying to thank you,
And know there just aren’t adequate words,
and I smile.
I think too of the new life we might have ahead for both of us,
But only because of the wisdom and knowledge we share with each other,
and I smile.
I sat there tonight watching you and thinking
Your beauty surpasses a rose, a sunset, a rainbow,
and I smile.
I think that I too must be a valuable person to get your friendship,
And how you too are so valuable and could never be replaced,
and I smile.
I dream of you embracing me, holding me, not only
With your arms, but your smile, your voice, your eyes
and I smile.
My mind caresses the wish of us being together each day,
Laughing, going to places as one, making plans for the future,
and I smile.
I think too that no matter how long it takes; days, weeks or years for me to prove to you how you deserve to be treated I will be there,
and I smile.
My mind reflects on your smile, your every movement
As we sat there tonight in Red Lobster,
and I smile.
Isn’t it strange what hope and love can do to our lives,
They bring something to our mind and heart so freely,
and it’s a smile.
Written September, 2008
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Stay A Little While In My Heart
When you're feeling so blue,
Life has nothing for you,
Come...
Stay a little while in my heart.
When the love you beseech,
Seems to be out of reach,
Come...
Stay a little while in my heart.
Please know any day...
You can come and stay...
If you open up your heart,
I will come and not depart.
In my heart you will view,
How much I could love you,
Come...
Stay a little while in my heart.
In my heart you’ll see,
The whole of me,
Come...
Stay a little while in my heart.
Please take a look...
My heart’s an open book...
I can see you standing there,
You will feel love everywhere!
Feel my love that abounds,
As my sweet joy surrounds,
You...
Stay a little while in my heart.
When your body is on fire,
I’ll satisfy every graving desire,
Just….
Stay a little while in my heart.
I'll be there when you're blue.
You'll feel life within you!
Come...
Stay a little while in my heart!
October 19, 2008
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Your Beauty Follows Me
I can see you
Like your standing right before me,
I can smell you
Cause that’s just where you should be;
Your dark hair
That shines in every light,
Your blue eyes
They are always so bright;
Even though there
Comes some dark times,
I feel the oppression of loneliness
Your beauty still shines;
Though the world
Seems to crash around me,
It’s your beauty
That always follows me;
I can see you standing
So tall and straight,
In my imagination
I think you are my fate;
Your long slender fingers
So beautiful and sleek,
Captures my emotions
And keeps me forever meek;
When I am laying alone
In bed on a dark night,
Your beauty follows me
Oh Lord, what a lovely sight;
Your beautiful body
That must belong to an angel above,
Flitters in my mind
Like a beautiful white dove;
But no matter what
The world may bring to bear,
Your beauty follows me
I surely love it being there.
December 2008
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The Old Man and the Bridge
There was once an old man
Who walked a certain way,
In the mountains alone
Though the day was cold and gray;
As he came upon a valley
One he could not cross,
It hit him with full impact
That Mother Nature was indeed boss;
Letting his mind wonder
A solution had to exist,
Sitting down on the bank
He made out a small list;
He could go down
Then up the other side,
But if someone should follow
Would that be a true guide?
Or he could build a bridge
From this side to the other,
But with age heavily upon him
Why should he even bother;
Though his life was ebbing
He built the bridge alone,
Made of darkened wood
Of mud and rounded stone;
No sooner had he finished
Then a stranger came,
Why have you built this thing
Being old and lame?
Can’t you see old man
This way you’ll never again travel,
So why have you taken the time
This mystery of nature to unravel?
I know what you mean
The old man to the stranger said,
For I am up in years
I know that soon I’ll be dead;
But let me tell you something
Than I know you’ll see,
I have a family of children
Who some day may follow me;
If I can make it easier
For them to cross this chasm deep,
The problems they encounter in life
May not seem quite so steep;
They may remember me
As a father who truly cared,
One who was not selfish
The last breath of life I shared;
The time it took
I was not afraid to spend,
To let them know I loved
Right down to the very end!
Dedicated to Connie, Timothy, Josh and Crystal
September 1988
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My Secret
Let me tell you about something,
A secret held so tight,
It happened to me I’m not sorry,
In the middle of last night;
A sound around my head,
I awoke with a terrible start,
A voice so sweet and enchanting,
Causing a pounding in my heart;
There right above me,
Very close to my face,
She said her name was Angel,
She was outlined in velvet lace;
So calmly I reasoned,
I must have died in my sleep,
If only I could take this angel,
Her I’d gladly keep;
Ever so gently I reached out,
The touch caused a tiny spark,
I could see her face light up,
Even in the coal like dark;
I stroked her beautiful black hair,
Told her things she knew,
I told her she was lovely,
The girl with eyes of blue;
Slowly my eyes started searching,
Not only her face but the rest,
The sight they beheld were unspeakable,
Her shoulders, her arms, her breast;
How could such beauty,
Be contained in just one girl,
The thought of it all,
Put my mind in a terrible whirl;
This just can’t be true,
It has to be a lie,
But what have I to lose,
I gently kissed her thigh;
The sweetness she possessed,
Drove me out of my mind,
The girl with the lovely face,
She’s surely one of a kind;
My heart was beating so fast,
My brain could not even think,
I was afraid she’d go away,
With only one small blink;
All of a sudden with no warning,
Everything went completely black,
I really don’t worry about it,
Another night I know she’ll be back;
But the thought of all that beauty,
Caused the tears down my cheeks to stream,
She wasn’t really standing before me,
But it sure was a beautiful dream!
Written by Garry Kauffman 2008
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All I think about is you
When I wake for another day,
all I can think about is you.
I have forgotten what is and what was,
I have come this far with this feeling in my heart,
all I can think about is you.
I have no feeling for this world any more,
I have no thoughts for anyone else in my mind,
all I can think about is you.
Even when I cease thinking,
When I feel that the whole world is caving in on me,
all I can think about is you.
When I think to myself that I really don’t deserve to be loved,
That no one like you really loved me,
When the weather changes from bad to good or from good to bad,
When I hear the birds chirping on those rare wonderful mornings,
all I can think about is you.
When I am talking to the world with these mixed emotions flowing through me,
When I am happy, or when I am sad,
all I can think about is you.
When I think of pure thoughts,
When my mind is a blitz with all types of bizarre thoughts,
all I can think about is you.
When times are cruel,
When this fire inside me burns brighter day-by-day,
When I am scared and afraid of being hurt or rejected,
all I can think about is you.
When this feeling inside banishes all fears within me,
When I wish for something or pray for something,
all I can think about is you.
When I lay my head to rest at night alone,
all I can think about is you.
Even after all the turmoil in our lives,
I would do anything to help any one of my kids, cause
all I can think about is you.
Today is January 1, 2008 many years later, and yet,
all I can think about is you.
NO MATTER WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN THE PAST, I MISS YOU….. Timothy, Connie, Josh and Crystal
Your Dad, Garry
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The ABC'S of our Love
A is for the way you Answered me when you sent me the first message.
B is for all the Bold, honest and open ways we are communicating.
C is for the Charm you portray with the words you speak.
D is for the Desire I have to meet you and the desire you have to proceed with caution.
E is for your Earnest devotion to get to know me.
F is for the Faithful friendship that is developing between us.
G is for the Gratitude I have. Just to know you is a special privilege.
H is for Hardship in your life you have had to endure and with grace overcome them.
I is for Integrity you have to say what you think.
J is for the Jovial way you make others feel by your own enthusiasm.
K is for the Keys we both hold that could mean a beautiful future for both of us.
L is for the Lessons we both have learned about relationships, making us both know what we are looking for.
M is for Mysterious, the name on your profile.
N is for the Notion that we should meet someday.
O is for the Oasis you have provided me by getting to know you.
P is for the Possession of the beautiful qualities you have.
Q is for Queen, the first thought that comes to my mind when I think of you.
R is for Risk, anyone afraid of taking a risk will never find true love.
S is for Smiley Faces, every time I read one of your emails you make me into one.
T is for Trust, the foundation of any solid relationship.
U is for the Ultimate decisions we both make.
V is for the Venture that I think is worth taking.
W is for the Wonderful beauty of your soul and heart.
X is for what I would put in the box beside your name for the Ms. Universe contest.
Z is for the Zealous feeling I had to meet you.
Garry Kauffman
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Her Beauty Within
A special prayer for Lois,
Lord, tonight’s the night
I beseech you my God
For her beauty is a wonderful sight;
Her pain is immense
I see it in her beautiful eyes,
But she’s always smiling
Never complains and rarely cries;
Lord please help her
This terrible heart pain please end,
Not only because she is beautiful
Instead for the sake of her beauty within;
I’m not asking but beseeching, God
Please, if this be your will,
Lord grant me the privilege
Take her pain and with it me fill;
I beg you my Savior
Cause you are my Best Friend
End the pain in her heart
Cause of her beauty within;
I’m not asking a single thing
Tonight from you for me,
Take the pain in those beautiful eyes
Please Lord simply set Lois free;
I beg you my Lord
Let her have a peaceful day,
If only I could
I’d take those pains away;
Now my God I’ve asked
This pain of Lois’s to end,
Not because of her lovely body
But to glorify You through her beauty within;
If for some reason
You think it best not to act,
To end this dreadful pain
That haunts her beautiful back;
At least my Lord
Let me her pain share,
For her my heart has grown
To really truly care;
Just one more time tonight
Though tomorrow I’ll ask again,
If you can’t stop please lessen her pain
For Lois is truly beautiful within.
Garry
Dedicated to a Lady... Nov. 3, 2008
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It’s You
Staring into the darkness
In the shadows, I hide,
One day in the future
I hope l can tell you what's inside;
Desire overcomes me
Whenever you're around,
Each second that I'm near you,
My heart begins to pound;
Oh how much I wanted to beg
And have you stay with me,
My heart says it's much deeper
Some day I know you’ll see;
Only out of respect for you
I’ll sleep alone again tonight,
Dreaming of giving you massages
And holding your body so tight;
My mouth can taste the sweetness
Of your soft and lovely breast,
I can feel your lips upon me
You are the very best;
Not just your beautiful soft body
Is what I dream with a kiss,
Along with that your heart
Would bring me heavenly bliss;
Just being with you like today
Is worth more then a mountain of gold,
Talking, holding and looking at you
Is almost more then my heart can hold;
I ask myself how I will know
A commitment you are ready,
It’s when you take my lips
And kiss them sweet and steady;
When that day comes upon us both
I hope you’ll excuse my joyful tears,
I know you’ll see I can love away
Your past thoughts and fears;
At least I can imagine your body
Held tightly next to mine,
The warmth and sweetness of your kiss
And loving you for all time;
Still I linger in my silence
Alone in bed at night,
Hoping one day for that chance
When I can forever hold you tight.
Dedicated to YOU after a day together going to Bailey
Garry Kauffman,
January, 2009
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A Friend
What is this thing
They call a friend,
Is it a true reality
Or just a pretend;
A friend is one
That stays with you,
On cloudy rainy days
Or days when the sky is blue;
This thing they call friend
Can with a simple smile,
Make tears seem like dewdrops
In spite of being sad all the while;
Ah, this thing we call friend
Is not so demanding,
Instead of being critical
Will show true understanding;
And even though at times
Advice they do give,
Realize full well
It’s our own life to live;
Though sorrow overtakes us
A friend will be right there,
Not to condemn or find fault
But instead to really care;
Though friendship can find
A pain in our own heart,
Through thick and thin
True friends will not part;
Together they may hurt
But also there’s more joy,
When the road gets tough
Friendship’s love they deploy;
No matter what happens
Rest assured of one thing,
A friendship is wonderful
From the heart makes one sing.
Written April 1, 2009
Dedicated to Georgia, the Beauty of Alabama
By Garry Kauffman
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Hold Me
Hold me, my love,
that's all I ask of you
I need to feel your touch
after the day I've been through:
Hold me, my love,
and tell me that you love me
Whisper in my ear
and set my spirit free:
Hold me, my love,
say you'll never let go
Just wrap me in your arms so tight
Where all I'll need to know I'll know:
Hold me, my love,
and we'll get lost in each other
Hold me, my love,
and tell me we'll stay like this forever.
Garry Kauffman
April 1, 2009
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WHAT YOU MEANT TO ME
There were nights
I'd sit alone in the dark
Cry myself to sleep
Wishing for someone
To fill my thoughts
Come into my life
And replace the darkness with light.
Then you came along
Like the first star every night
Bright, beautiful, full of promise
Like a ray of light
You lit up my days
Lit up my nights
You filled my life with hope.
I’d reach for you
Hoping to feel the closeness
Of your beauty and softness
To smell you and taste you
Just to kiss your lips
Sometimes you would be there
But many times it was only a dream.
I ask myself, If Only?
If only what, I really don’t know
If only I could have cleansed
Your mind of all those fears
Washed away the doubts
With my own confidence and tears?
If only I could have proved my love to you.
But here I lay in bed
The darkness is upon me like lead
Tomorrow I will go to work
People look at me and wonder why
The tears are running down my cheeks
I will simply say I have something in my eye
They will never know the pain I feel.
As I walk alone tonight, like most nights now
I look up at the star that reminded me of you
I wonder what you are doing or saying
To that man that lies where I use to lay
I can’t help but think of the times we spent
The love that my heart wanted to give you
And what you meant to me.
Written April 2, 2009
Garry Kauffman
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MY LOVE
How selfish is a love that
Wants to hold on and deny,
To keep caged the soul
That yearns to be free to fly?
How selfish to not want to
Share and give back to the universe,
That which was not really mine
But just borrowed for temporary use?
How unselfish is a love
That lets the loved one go,
That frees the caged soul
So that to others it can flow?
How unselfish is it knowing that
We do the most good for others, apart
And yet at the same time I will
Lovingly hold you in my heart?
Thank you for letting me love you
With a love not possessive but can let go,
Thank you for the courage to accept
Your freedom as to others you show.
That one is not alone or separated
Just because we live apart,
We have been joined for eternity
Because you live in my saddened heart.
You can deny and laugh
At the love I have for you,
Loyalty is my worst trait
No matter what you’ve done or do.
Written in memory of my 4 kids
May, 2007
Garry Kauffman
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Can’t Lose
When I look back
Over the time we had
So much fun and laughter
Yet inside I remained sad;
I think of the kisses
The times of intimacy
And now I look back
Finally I can really see;
You can’t lose someone
Or the love you thought you shared
If it was never really there
No matter how much you cared;
Love is not something
That you can even gain
Or give it so freely to someone
If they don’t feel the same;
Life must go on
No matter how sorry and sad
It’s truly impossible
To lose something you never had.
April 6, 2009
Garry Kauffman
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Memories
Heart Oh Heart
Are you a deceiver,
Or in disguise
A blessed receiver;
You crept to my mind
Ever so cunningly,
A part of me you stole
A sweet pleasing memory;
Came to my mind
As a thief in the night,
Grasping my memories
Holding them so tight;
Into my mind
You came as a thief,
Not only taking my thoughts
You captured also my grief;
A part of my mind is gone
I should be terribly sad,
You old heart of mine
Instead made me so glad;
For memories of those
Will never truly part,
Have found a new home
Instead in my heart;
Thinking of them
Makes life worthwhile,
No more frowns
Just a simple smile;
For memories reside
Not alone in our mind,
But in our heart
Memories we can find;
My heart is so faithful
Not a cunning deceiver,
Keep my memories safe
You blessed receiver.
April, 2009
Garry Kauffman
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Lonely Already
I’m sitting here thinking
Of the two weeks without you,
I know I’m going crazy
What in the hell can I do?
To see you and feel your touch
On my body, my hands, my face,
There’s nothing in this world
Could ever take its place;
It’s hard for me to not see you
Even for one single day,
How can I take 2 weeks alone
All I think of is yesterday;
There is no tomorrow
Or tomorrow night,
When I can hold and kiss you
See your face in candlelight;
I haven’t even left you
Yet I find myself already lonely,
I look around at things you touched
Your beautiful face is all I see;
I’d give you my life
You already have my heart,
Two weeks of not seeing you
Seems an eternity of being apart;
Just know one thing for certain
Your love I have always sought,
You will be in my dreams
And every single thought.
April 12, 2009
Garry Kauffman
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I Don’t Care
I just don’t care
Which way the wind blows,
If a tornado should come
If it rains buckets or snows;
I honestly don’t care
If in the morning the sun appears,
Or the moon comes out at night
I cry and there are no tears;
I can’t even care
If that winning spirit I’ve lost,
I buy something I don’t need
Don’t even care about the cost;
If someone says hello
A hollow sound I return the Hi,
I don’t care if someone laughs
All I can do is smile and then sigh;
I care about your feelings
I care about your life,
I care about your heart
I care about your strife;
I care about your body
I care about your smile,
I care about being with you
Even if it’s for just awhile;
I can’t afford to care
If the world is mean and sad,
But I surely can and do care
If I can make you laugh and glad;
I really don’t care
If the grass is green, the sky is blue,
What my heart wants most
Is to always be with you.
Garry Kauffman
April 28, 2009
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